Okay today I have decided is the beginning of my 12-step program to


I don’t know if I come across as being confident on my blog.  Some days I wish I could read or see things as you do, but I can’t.   Instead I worry that what I’m saying will be ‘disagreeable’ to some and quite often I find myself editing, and re-editing what I’ve written because I want to please and don’t want to cause conflict.  I won’t talk about politics, religion or even reality TV for fear of upsetting someone.  It all comes down to confidence.  Something that deep down I don’t have.  

I see other bloggers going out and getting what they want.  They have no fear of approaching companies for reviews, giveaways and sponsorship.  I wish I could be a lot more like them.  I am not that person … yet.  Instead I wait to be approached.  I sit in the background.

So this week I’m doing 2 things I normally wouldn’t do EVER. 

1.  I put myself up for the Mother of All Bloggers contest at momlogic.  Normally I wait and hope somebody will just nominate me for things like this.  But, unlike most contests of this nature, I had to start the process by requesting nominations *gasp*.   Oh and I deliberated on doing this for so long because I was scared nobody would nominate me that now there are only 3 days left.  So pretty, pretty please, head on over to my page at momlogic and type “I nominate you for Mother of All Bloggers” in my comments section.

and now that I have put this out there I will stop obsessing over this and quit refreshing my homepage at momlogic and my email every 3 seconds hoping that a nomination pops up.  I will shut down my computer … and obsess by looking at my Blackberry instead every 3 seconds from the backyard 🙂

2.  I said I had two big fears I was going to conquer didn’t I.  Oiy.  So number 2 is that I am going to be attending the Mom It Forward Fundraiser event at the Hard Rock Hotel this Saturday night.  I’ll be there.  By myself.  I don’t know a single person going.  Think I’ll head straight to the bar.  In my mind everyone else going knows everyone who will be there.  Is that going to be just in my mind though.  I’m scared.  If by chance you are in the area and want to come down here is the link to the Facebook group for more information.  There is still a chance I may back out at the last moment … you know I may have a last minute appointment with a bottle of vodka  😉

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San Diego Momma April 15, 2009 - 5:00 pm

Good for you. I have a similar confidence problem, but I don’t do anything about it. You should be proud that you’re taking positive steps toward better self esteem!Also…I should be at the Hard Rock Sat. night…email me if you want to meet up!Deb

TUTU Monkey April 15, 2009 - 5:00 pm

Good for you Tonya!!I hope you have a wonderful time on Saturday. I wish I was going to be back in time to go with you but I think going by yourself is going to be liberating!!I went on vacation once by myself to New York it was one of the best trips I have even been on.You will do great!!

Sharlene April 15, 2009 - 5:00 pm

Its takes alot of failures to produce great success. When I thought about how many times I tried to have kids but kept being visited by my evil Aunt Flo, I felt liek a failure. But all those little failures led me to have the twins I have today. Put yourself out there, take the risk. Sometimes it pays off. Sometimes it doesn’t. But its much better than living in the land of “what if”

Bre April 16, 2009 - 5:00 pm

This is such a great idea Tonya! I’m so happy for you that you’re taking this step to do things for yourself. Even though you are perfect in my eyes! :o)

April April 16, 2009 - 5:00 pm

Go T! I love that you are putting it all out there! You are amazing…truly!

cat April 16, 2009 - 5:00 pm

Oh Tonya, you come across a super confident! But you are absolutely correct is just doing things that you fear most. I hate being in a room full of strangers, but due to work often have to do it. And it is ok at the end! Find the first other person you see that are standing on their own (and there will be) and strike up a chat about the event you are attending. Good luck with no 2 – no 1 you should not fear at all girl – we all love you!

Shannon April 16, 2009 - 5:00 pm

Good for you, Tonya! Conquer those fears! You are much greater than you give yourself credit for. Sorry again that I couldnt make it this weekend…if you Nicole end up going, I hope you have a wonderful time!!


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